Looking Back

I wrote this post 2014. I love looking back at photos, journal entries, and old post to see God’s faithfulness.-

Speaking my heart isn’t always easy for me. I do it because I feel LED and TAUGHT to share to possibly help someone, or teach from my experience. This morning as I’m nearing the end of an extensive study, I’m feeling the kind of thankfulness that my human flesh almost cannot contain. Jesus has brought me so far, and taught me so much. I truly was BLIND and now I SEE. And because of that, I owe Him my LIFE. There was a time when He captured my attention. I fell in love with Him. I got baptized. I went to church. I was STARVING for His word. I felt SAFE in His arms. I gave Him my attention, but in SO many ways I was denying Him with my heart. I was denying Him with my SELF. I was denying Him with my words. I was denying Him with some of my practices, habits, and my thinking that I could have “both” sort of lifestyle. But what I’m thankful for this morning, is that HE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME! I want to slap my old self!

I would fall and He would pick me up. I would get broken, and He would pick up the pieces. He redeemed me, and only God knows why. I was a pathetic believer. I was an even more pathetic FOLLOWER. I will spend the rest of my life on this earth waking up each morning surrendering my SELF to Him, because I am NOTHING without Him. He SAVED me.

He calls His children to be set apart, and to be known by the marks that distinguish His kingdom. He calls us to make a stand. We should BE different… look different… and even look foolish to the WORLD….for His sake. And we should be willing to share and confess Him to others boldly with no fear even when its out of our comfort. This is our calling as followers. We don’t just receive all this undeserved grace and end it there. We give it away to others in return. We do the things Jesus did. We take courage and we go. We take courage and we share.

Just another morning of being flooded with thankfulness…. JESUS IS my One and Only.