Hearing His Voice

I woke this morning with a bit of a heavy heart and I was really desiring to hear from God in my quiet time.

This weekend I had invited two friends from a relatively new job to see James Maloney at a church I had recently discovered. I had never seen him but I have been to see Bill Johnson so I knew what to expect and knew what an honor it would be to experience him.

I knew they HAD NOT experienced anything like this.

I adore these two women and KNOW how God lead me to this job 100% and to these relationships I’m building.

After the service and the next day I had text them both twice and never heard anything from them. I began feeling heavy wondering if it was too much and if I had done something wrong. Of course those bad voices began plaguing my mind of what a fool I was, and how I’m going to be wearing my “she’s crazy” sign at work now.

I told God, “Father, I believe in ALL of it. I believe in ALL the more you have for us. I believe in ALL the supernatural. I believe in ALL the miracles and miraculous healings. I believe in ALL the GIFTS of the kingdom that you give each one of us to steward. I believe in Angels! And I believe in every single thing written in your Word, so why do I “feel” this heaviness? Did I do something wrong?

I had just heard Him tell me a couple weeks ago while reading scripture that He wanted me to shine and not be HIDDEN. It was heard loud and clear. I even wrote it down exactly what I heard Him say.

Later that day He even affirmed that I was hearing from Him by showing me something in the sky. (I know that may sound silly but He speaks to me through so many things. It’s just our language to each other.)

I didn’t know it THEN but that WORD from Him was for today.

He said to me, “ Kiddo, you go to that job I lead you to with your smile on your face and love in your heart just like you always do.”

His LOVE astounds me.

On another note one of my children is having health issues that are FEELING hopeless like there is no solution.

As I was into my quiet time I began listening to a little clip from Graham Cooke that was about applying the specific PROMISES that God has given to you personally.

I KNOW this. I KNOW to do this. So why do I so easily forget?

Luke 1:37 is a verse God has given to my life and He’s gone to great lengths to make sure that I know that. It’s been given to me randomly from close believer friends. It’s been prophesied over me. It’s been given to me by a stranger. And when I see it it’s as if God illuminates it for me.

And as I said, recently He told me He didn’t want me to be hidden.

Well while reading today’s devotion from Pastor Dave a couple of words leapt OFF the page and INTO my heart like a jolt of lightening.

Suddenly my heart was overflowing with joy as if someone slapped me to my senses.

Pastor Dave was talking about Jesus being the Light of the world. Suddenly I remembered what He had told me about being a LIGHT for Him.

Then I heard Him whisper to my heart.

“Erin, you know I’ve made you wired for my Kingdom. I’ve told you that I do not want you to hide what is inside of you. It’s not meant to be hidden. I made you to be brave and SHINE not to walk in fear or doubt.” My confidence immediately boosted.

He had ALREADY spoke this to me and SHOWED me about not being hidden. How in the world could I have so easily forgotten?!?! And how come I so naturally FELT like hiding???!

Then Pastor Dave went on to quote Lisa Bevere saying, “our God loves triumphing over what looks IMPOSSIBLE.”

There was THAT word. And when I read it in the devotion it seared my heart.

How many times had I prayed for my child telling myself that it seemed hopeless… that figuring it out seemed “impossible.”

I felt the Holy Spirit say, “Hello?!? REMEMBER how you were JUST reminded to take your special promises and STAND on them?!

As I was having these revelations and making the connections I imagined myself worshiping at His feet for the grace and mercy He gives me. I am so grateful for His patience.

I heard Him saying, “Erin, you have to trust in Me more than what you SEE.” Again another thing He has had to repeatedly remind me of.

He just told me a week or so ago that He was training me and transforming me in this season of learning, to DO NOTHING and just REST and BE WITH Him.

I am certainly LEARNING and growing and I’m so thankful for these revelations.

I went in and prayed a prayer with confidence over my child with a big smile on my face and a super grateful heart. I felt like I had been set free and could see Him coming out of that dark! The devotion I was reading was using this illustration.

The LIGHT was coming and that darkness had to flee!

And I HAD been set free from those toxic thoughts.

I immediately began declaring out loud that NOTHING was impossible for Him and that in Him complete answers are found and healing is released! I lifted these situations up to Him and told Him I believe!

When we come and rest and stand on those specific promises He gives us, all the confidence that God has in his word comes to us.

I claimed it all with pure joy in my heart and lost all fear of BOTH of those issues!

Oh what it does to hear His voice.

It’s what I live for.

If you start out your day asking Him what His heart is for today, and asking Him how He wants to use you, He is always faithful to show you. Ask Him what His heart is for you and if He wants to reveal anything that might be keeping you from hearing from Him and having intimacy with Him. He will always show you!

He loves revealing mystery AND truth to His children. He’s the most amazing Father!

Aussie Dave’s Daily Devotions on Instagram are a everyday discipline for me. His devotions have taught me so much and God has spoken to me numerous times while reading them so I always recommend them to everyone!

And a very short P.S. because I don’t want it to ever be a focus… THOSE where lies of the enemy I was hearing and the very reason I felt insecure and like hiding. When you are thinking toxic thoughts, anything negative, anything destructive, anything that DOESN’T line up with God’s word, get rid of it! Recognize it’s not of God and be relentless in shutting down Satan’s ploy.

“So Timothy, my son, I am entrusting you with this responsibility, in keeping with the very first prophecies that were spoken over your life, and are now in the process of fulfillment in this great work of ministry, in keeping with the prophecies spoken over you. With this encouragement use your prophecies as weapons as you wage spiritual warfare by faith and with a clean conscience. For there are many who reject these virtues and are now destitute of the true faith,”

‭‭1 Timothy‬ ‭1:18-19‬ ‭TPT‬‬