What are You up to, Papa?✨His mysterious ways THRILL me. I’ve been seeing the subject of dreaming EVERYWHERE lately. I have a little TESTIMONY about DREAMING. Hopefully someday I’ll have many others but for now this is my story. All these signs about dreams have given me a desire to write it.
A couple of years ago I humbly laid a couple of dreams down at His feet when He told me to CHASE “HIM” instead of the dream that I believed (and still believe) He gave me.
I’m unsure of the ‘WHY’ He gave it, but I know one day He will show me.
One dream I was actively pursuing because He SHOWED it to me and I was trying to be obedient.
The other dream had been stirring in my heart for YEARS. It was a smaller dream and the seeds of this dream I know He planted in my heart and I was trying to be obedient to that one as well.
In the middle of trying to be obedient to the big dream. He took me to a mountaintop (literally) while visiting Fresh Life in Montana (the heart of my dream you could say) and after revealing His GLORY while there He subtlety asked me to be BRAVE and walk away from “the dream” to passionately pursue “HIM” and this glory He was revealing.
He was wooing me.
The girls and I saw Him EVERYWHERE on that trip. It might as well have been Heaven. He was so present with us in our time there throughout the WHOLE trip that it would not have surprised us to see a talking donkey. It was unreal.
I literally cried over and over because of His goodness and presence.
After a bit we where just expecting to see the divine around every corner. It was like nothing I’ve ever experienced.
He made His presence extremely obvious to us and I was seeing while THERE His desires for me unfold. He began softening my heart to what lay ahead. I had a notion of what was coming.
I knew He wanted me to seek the Heavenl on earth we experienced there. I knew what we experienced THERE was not “normal” and I knew there was something of great importance to it.
I didn’t realize this all at once but it’s like my spirit KNEW if that makes any sense. I figured it out as things unfolded after returning. Very slowly He lead me. Very slowly He wooed me and made it clear.
A bit like Abraham being willing to give up his son. Except of course not exactly because it was just a DREAM and not a child. When the time was right, and I had full understanding, I let go of what I was holding on to.
Not fully understanding I surrendered the dreams that were in my head and heart and laid them down. I began seeking (HIS HEART) instead of seeking Him ((for directions)) SO THAT I could in return please Him by being obedient.
That was part of my brokenness that I wasn’t even aware of.
After that visit He made it very clear through a very difficult storm I was walking in that He was with me. He gave me a sacred message in Montana that as we follow Jesus we must suffer well. I clung to those words while walking through the fire.
From that point on He would be leading me through LOTS of things.
That particular season would be one of the hardest, but instead of focusing on the dream I was chasing, He made me keenly aware of my NEED for Him in what was right in FRONT of me.
After that mountaintop revelation nearly two years ago God did MASSIVE healing in my heart.
The first being to “suffer well.”
Funny how that makes me smile now. I could write a book on what suffering looks like. I know it well. Just know that when God is doing reconstruction surgery on your heart and soul, it might hurt a bit.
Know that the things around you might be falling apart at the seams, but as He molds you and as your being obedient to His every word, He WILL go before you and make your path straight.
Everything in following Him is upside down and inside out and “feels” unnatural. And not doing what feels “natural” when your flesh wants to PROTECT will feel like suffering.
We take the pain, hurt, and what “SEEMS” unfair and we exchange it for His outcome. And it’s beyond worth it. It’s the JOY that lies ahead.
Not long after THAT difficult season He introduced me to SOZO. (inner healing)
I received HEALING I never knew I needed.
This really changed the course of my life.
-He RESTORED my marriage.
-He activated spiritual gifts to use for His Kingdom that I never knew I had.
-He’s given me so many divine encounters, but ONE that completely anchored my FAITH.
-He’s given me prophetic words to hold on to and promises to cling to.
-And the BEST is that He gave me discernment. (The ability to pause before reacting BECAUSE I’m able to discern what is happening in the unseen.)
My emotions and feelings no longer dictate me.
I’m able to better discern lies from TRUTH.
Can you say FREEDOM?!?!
-He’s given me prophetic dreams about my own life.
-And He is daily affirming me in what I’m doing. Literally, divinely giving me little signs and wonders to show me I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. It’s like a kiss from Him every day SHOWING me that I’m pleasing Him and even more… that He loves me.
It’s insane.
-I hear and see Him now and can be confidently lead instead of guessing and walking blindly. It’s still FAITH and UNSEEN but the Holy Spirit has been activated in my life instead of just KNOWLEDGE about Him.
-He also activated my prayer language about a year ago that I know moves mountains in the heavenly realm.
-He’s made me a better wife, momma, and friend.
No more striving to please Him. No more of the pattern of trying to please to make Him proud of me. I fully received my gift of GRACE. And He blesses me every single day.
AND I KNOW THERE IS MORE TO COME!!!!
FREEDOM and GRACE ushered me into PEACE and REST. And I could also right a novel on this “resting” experience. For me it’s about not ((DOING)) “anything” so that I can SEE all that He does and is doing for me….(without my help.🙃)
At first this was torture and was extremely hard. But now months into it I can sit and marvel under His fountain of grace.
I’ve been inheriting the Kingdom I was born for.
He has passionately been transforming my identity into who He purposed me to be from the beginning, and when an attitude, action, or thought isn’t right He quickly shows me so I can repent abd change it.
He’s making me a WARRIOR.
This past year has been about the hardest I’ve ever walked through. But trial after trial He has walked with me and has allowed Heaven into those fiery oppositions.
Oh what a tragedy it would have been if I had missed this.
I needed this relationship and FOUNDATION like I need oxygen.
Before I was broken and unaware and now I’m more equipped and expectant.
I don’t have to strive to make DREAMS come true or make a ministry for Him. In His perfect timing He will bring it to me and it will be beautiful and powerful.
I don’t understand all the intricate details but I TRUST Him. He DAILY blows my mind. I live in a constant state of AWE no matter what I’m going through. He gives me signs and wonders leading me on my way.
Be willing to go wherever He wants to take you. Even when you don’t understand. It will be the best place you’ve ever been.
Papa always knows best and I know He LOVES it when we partner with Him to DREAM. And I know those dreams He gave me were not to mislead or trick me. I just can’t see the full picture, but someday I will, and it will be GLORIOUS.
Eyes Of A Lion 